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Ambivalent

 Jeremiah 1-3 

So I talked to this young, expecting mother about the importance of safe sleep for a newborn. No pillows, blankets, toys. I arrive at her home, as a home visiting nurse, to see the baby shortly after birth. And she is asleep, surrounded by pillows, blankets, and toys. I talked to another mother about cutting back on smoking by using nicotine patches. On my next visit, I ask if she was able to get a prescription for the patches. Her eyes drop and she says a shy, “No…” I try not to look judgmental or disappointed. We have further discussions but inside, I am a bit frustrated and when I have a full day of those kinds of interactions, I really start to question my choice of vocations. And I also feel like I might be getting a taste of what Jeremiah went through and understand how he got his nick-name, “The Weeping Prophet.” 

In his self-titled book, Jeremiah is introduced as the young son of a priest, making him a Levite. Most Biblical scholars agree he was probably a cup bearer and probably around 17 to 20 years old. Reminiscent of Moses, God calls Jeremiah to him and gives him an important job. While Moses’s excuse was that he was not a good public speaker, Jeremiah tells God, “But I’m just a boy.” (1:6) I wonder if God rolled His eyes. : ) 

But God goes on to tell him that he is to be a prophet, to warn Judah that destruction is coming. God gives him the words and in the first 3 chapters of the book, Jeremiah is pretty harsh. Like in Hosea, and throughout the Old Testament, he compares Judah, and Israel as a whole, to cheating spouses. But unlike Jonah and the prophet Zephaniah, Jeremiah is largely ignored. He warns, he pleads, and the people continue to do their own thing. They know God exists but ignore His direction and commands. And Jeremiah knows what the coming consequences are. 

They were ambivalent. I mentioned that word in yesterday’s devotion. It is a good word for describing those sitting on a proverbial ‘fence.’ They know the consequence of their behavior, but the behavior is easier, more fun. There are a lot of, “ Yeah, but…” in the conversations. Yeah, I know I should stop smoking, but it’s so hard. Yeah I know God is going to destroy our nation, but is my little idol really going to make a difference? It can be so frustrating for those whose job it is to dole out the warnings. I’ve only been a nurse, giving medical and safety advice for about 7 years. Jeremiah was a prophet for over 40 years. I can only imagine! And he wasn’t allowed to quit! 

As we read these passages that are hard to read or hear, let us think about the areas in our own lives where we are ambivalent about our obedience to the Lord. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord, help us to listen to your Word and those in our lives who give us Godly wisdom. Help us embrace what is good and what is good for us in Your eyes and reject the bad. Please let us let go of excuses. 

In Christ’s Name, 

Amen 

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. Do you more often stubbornly follow your own evil heart or go God’s way?
  2. In what areas of your life have you been or are you currently ambivalent about obeying God? What excuses have you tried giving God or others about your actions or attitudes?
  3. What changes might Jeremiah prescribe for you personally? For your church? For your nation and world today?
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Zephaniah

Zephaniah 1-3 

Do not be like the rest of society, not obeying, not trusting, and not drawing near to the Lord (3:2) Instead, seek out the Lord, do what He commands, and seek righteousness and humility (2:3)

“Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” This quote by philosopher George Santayana has famously been reiterated by Winston Churchill and probably every history teacher you’ve ever had. It just makes sense, right? We can avoid so many problems if we learn from the mistakes of others, whether it’s personally or corporately. Unfortunately, as Santayana noted, even those who DO learn history repeat it. 

Sadly, as a society, we’re not doing any better than the people of Israel in the book of Zephaniah. 

In the very short book of Zephaniah (we’re going to call him Zeph for short), Zeph is giving a warning to the people of Judah to turn from idols, stop their violence and evil, and most importantly, TRUST the LORD! In my short amount of google research, it seems most Biblical scholars believe Zeph was a cousin and possibly a friend of King Josiah. Zeph was most likely preparing the people for the coming revival of faith and obedience brought by King Josiah. 

Not to spoil it, but Judah does turn from their wicked ways and turn to the Lord! Yay! 

But, not remembering the warnings and history, they forget and are later captured by Babylon. Sigh. 

But are we any better? Zeph prophesies to the people way back in 640 BC. One of the major problems Zeph preached against were those who knew God exists but that He “will not do good, nor will He do evil.” (1:12) This is ambivalence. 

This ambivalence continued into the Roman Empire. In 1776, Edwin Gibbon wrote in his book, “The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire” about the religious attitudes in the last day of the Roman Empire around 476 AD. 

-The people regarded all religions as equally true. 

-The philosophers regarded all religions as equally false. 

-The politicians regarded all religions as equally useful. 

(Enduringword.com) 

These were the attitudes of the people of Judah some 1100 years before. And they are exactly the same attitudes of our society 1550 years later! We do not learn. Even with history laid out before us. 

However, as Zeph wrote in his book, there were those in Judah who did not go along with everyone else and they will be rewarded. We need to be like that “remnant of Judah” (2:7).

We may not live in a society that learns from its history, but we certainly can be individuals and a church that does. 

Prayer: 

Dear Lord, please open our minds to allow us to not only learn history, but to avoid actions we have seen that lead to destruction. Please let us be a light to those who know you exist but deny your goodness in their lives. Thank you for allowing us to come before you to seek righteousness and humility. 

In Christ’s name, Amen 

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. What similarities do you see between the people of Judah in Zephaniah’s day and the people of your world today? Any differences?
  2. What is the problem with being ambivalent toward God? What could/would/will you say to someone who is ambivalent toward God?
  3. If you were to write a letter of warning to the people today what do you think God would want you to say?
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Clean, Holy, Set Apart

Numbers 18-20


Back in 1847 a doctor named Ignaz Semmelweis noticed that, through several events, women who had died of postnatal fever had been attended during the birth by doctors who had just done autopsies. Semmelweis came up with the idea that doctors should wash their hands between autopsies and births. And all of us collectively think… well yeah! Of course! But this was not part of the course of a doctor’s day at the time. In fact, many doctors were offended at the suggestion they weren’t clean. Semmelweis was absolutely ridiculed and eventually driven mad. He was placed in an asylum where he died within two weeks, ironically from an infection, after being beaten by prison guards.
Perhaps these doctors should have referred to today’s reading. After discussing the duties of the Levites in Numbers 18, Numbers 19 discusses being “unclean” for 7 days after touching a corpse for any reason. Definitely something these doctors should have taken note of.


Much is said about what is clean and unclean in the Pentateuch. The Israelites certainly benefited physically from not touching dead bodies or eating pork. Some issues of cleanliness could not be helped, such as touching the dead or having a monthly period. In these cases, people were unclean for a time and then had to wash themselves in special ceremonies and offer sacrifices.
But God did not delineate what was clean and unclean just for hygiene’s sake. God also wanted the Israelites to be set apart, different than the rest of the world, holy.


We are to come before Him with clean hands and pure hearts (Psalm 24: 4). But there are times when we become unclean and need someone who can wash us white as snow. Praise God for providing the sacrifice that completely cleans us, His Son, Jesus Christ.


We’ve come a long way since 1847. Hand washing is the first skill nurses have to demonstrate before moving on to other skills. As you wash your hands today, keep in mind the One who cleans you completely!

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. What can we learn from Ignaz? What can we learn from the doctors who ridiculed Ignaz, believing that they themselves were clean?
  2. Does God still want His people today, the church, to be clean, holy and set apart? What does that look like? What does it look like to have a church that is dirty/stained, unholy and blending in with the world?
  3. Are there any common practices today that you think might be making many Christians unclean before the Lord?
  4. What is the only way you can come before God clean? If you accept Jesus as Lord of your life, are there still things you do that make you clean and unclean? How might Numbers have been preparing God’s people for Jesus?
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God’s Chosen Leaders

Numbers 15-17

So things are not going well for the Israelites. In yesterday’s reading, we see that distrust in God led to the destruction of many and the curse of roaming around the desert – which would eventually lead to the death of everyone over 20 years old when they grumbled against the Lord. In today’s reading, God first curses the people by demanding offerings brought in fractions.  Frankly, I would have found this worse than being stuck in the desert. 2/10, ⅓, 3/10, ¼ , WOW! This would definitely be a sacrifice of praise for me! 

Now you would think that having seen God’s miracles and blessings, people would accept Moses as their human leader and do what was required of them. But in Numbers 16, a man named Korah, a Levite,  decides he’s had enough. I don’t know if he blames Moses for the things that have gone wrong on this journey or he just liked picking fights with those in leadership. But long story short, God decides He’s not even going to mess around and swallows Korah, along with his cronies who sided with him and all their households and all that they owned. 

In Numbers 17 God uses the familiar rod (the same rod He turned into a snake, sent a few plagues and split the Red Sea)  to prove that Moses and Aaron are the leaders He anointed. God had Moses collect a rod from each of the 12 tribes of Israel, and write the name of each tribe on the rods, Aaron representing the Levites. He would then cause one to bloom and the one that blooms was the rightful leader.  I don’t think it’s a spoiler to tell you which one bloomed… to the point of producing almonds! I would think that seeing the ground opening up and swallowing a lot of people who had been complaining against Moses and Aaron would have been enough for me to keep my thoughts to myself. However, apparently, there was still some complaining but after the budding of the rod, no one questioned Aaron’s position after that,  Yeah…I kind of think that’s weird too!

Today’s reading ends with, “Behold, we parish, we are dying, we are all dying! Everyone who comes near the tabernacle of the LORD, must die. Are we to perish completely?” Cheery. Even cheerier… WE are all dying. The people of Israel (at that moment) finally realized they were one mistake away from death. They needed a savior. WE need a savior.  I am so grateful this is not the end of the story.

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. What was Korah’s (and those who aligned with him) sin, or sins?
  2. How did Moses handle this rebellion?
  3. How do you tell who God has chosen as Christian leaders?
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Fear or Faith? Panic or Peace?

Numbers 13 & 14 and Psalm 90

Some of you may be old enough to remember the old Sunday School song, “12 Men Went to Canaan Land” and you held up your ten fingers and then gave the double thumbs down when you sang “10 were bad.” Then you held up two fingers and gave two thumbs up while you sang “and 2 were good!”


In today’s reading we see the stark difference between fear and faith and why 10 were bad and two were good.


In chapter 13, twelve spies, one from each tribe in Israel, came to scope out the land of Canaan, the land flowing with milk and honey, the land God had promised.


In his commentary, David Guzik, reminds readers that there was no need for this reconnaissance mission. According to Ezekiel 20:6, God had already searched this land and promised it to them. So some people were already distrusting God from the beginning.


“Some saw giants big and strong,” 10 of the Israelite spies came back with scary accounts of many giants in the land that made the spy’s look like grasshoppers. One theologian stated that “fear performed the miracle of adding a cubit to the stature.” 😉 and on top of that, the city is heavily guarded! Obviously, there was NO way to defeat them!


“Some saw grapes in clusters long.” All of the spies agreed that the land was made of fertile soil and it would be easy to grow wonderful food there. This was definitely the place God had promised them!


“Some saw God was in it all,” But only two spies, Joshua and Caleb, had unshakable faith that God would deliver what He had promised and bring them into this land.


I love how F.B. Meyer put it, “ They saw the same spectacles in their survey of the land; but the result in one case was panic, in the other confidence and peace. What made the difference? It lay in this, that the 10 spies compared themselves with the giants, whilst the two compared the giants with God.” WOW! Did that statement convict you?!? It sure convicted me!


It’s easy for us to figure out who was good and bad back in the Old Testament. Hindsight from over 3000 years ago is 20/20. But what about you? When troubles come your way, which spy describes your response? Are you comparing you to your troubles, or your troubles to God?


“10 Were Bad and 2 Were Good!” Which one are you?

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. How is Caleb described in Numbers 14:24? is there anyone you know today who could also wear that description well?
  2. “10 Were Bad and 2 Were Good!” Which one are you? Do you generally compare yourself to your troubles and experience fear and panic? Or, do you more often compare your troubles to your God and rest in faith and peace?
  3. What was the reward for Caleb and Joshua? What was the punishment for the 10 spies? What was the punishment for all those who listened to and trusted the report of the spies? Who are you listening to today? How does who you listen to today determine whether you will receive a reward or punishment?
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Lead Us in the Ways of the Lord

Numbers 10-12

The first time I ever set up a tent without my husband was when I took my  just about to be 10 year old son to Cub Scout camp.  Unfortunately, both of us were a little too short to reach all the parts we needed to secure the tent. BUT! Luckily, another parent came over and helped us out. He also gave us some tips about tent camping.  However, he forgot one small detail, or maybe he thought it was common sense. He didn’t mention that we should sweep the ground before setting up the tent so there would be no rocks underneath.  The first night was very uncomfortable (the next few nights we were so exhausted that we didn’t care)!

I suspect that the people of Israel were getting pretty good at setting up tents by the end of Numbers 10.  This chapter lays out the order in which the tribes of Israel were to move when God would lift the cloud. It is interesting to note that Moses asks his brother-in-law for assistance since he was from around those parts.  My Bible footnote states that “Divine guidance does not exclude using human help.” I think that could apply to so many areas of our life! God often puts just the right person into our lives at just the right time to carry out His will! 

But sometimes the people in our lives can bring us down. In chapters 11 and 12, we find that the people are complaining, a lot, so much that some of them want to go back to Egypt! I don’t know for sure but I think it’s reasonable to guess that it probably started with a few people and soon others followed. Of course, this caused God to get a bit aggravated, sending fire and plagues against those who complained. Even Miriam, Moses’s sister, got a plague of her own, developing an acute case of leprosy. Fortunately for her, God forgave her and healed her. 

Today’s reading really reminds me that while God does send people into our lives to better us and for His glory, there are those who will pull us away from God. When deciding who is who, look at the overall life of the person. What does their life look like? What does their relationship with God look like? If they are a mess and far from God, I guess you could learn what NOT to do! However, we would be wise to listen to the ones who will lead us in the ways of the LORD (and will remind you to sweep before setting up a tent)! 

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. Does your circle of influencers include more helpful people who will help lead you in the way of the Lord, or more complainers who will arouse the Lord’s anger? Who specifically do you know who could be beneficial to spend more time with?
  2. What would others say about you? Are you more known for your complaining or for leading in the way of the Lord?
  3. When you do complain, what are you more likely to be complaining about? and to whom? Would there be a better use of your time and words?
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On the Move

Numbers 7-9

Ok quizzers and especially National Quizzing Director, Jacob Ballard, hear me out! Numbers 7 should be part of the quizzing materials next year! I mean, while it is the longest chapter in Numbers, you really would only need to memorize 5 verses! 

Numbers 7 is very repetitive because all 12 tribes of Israel come to present their gifts to the Tabernacle, and they all give almost exactly the same thing (apparently there was no Tabernacle gift registry 😉). But that was actually on purpose as God wanted all of the people to praise and participate in the rights and responsibilities equally. He wanted every tribe to be fully devoted to Him no matter the size of the tribe. That is a reminder to us that even if we are all of different socio-economic statuses, we all bring the same thing to God, our hearts and our devotion. 

Numbers 8 describes how God set the descendants of Levi apart as royal priests. Whenever I have read about the jobs of the Levites, I’ve been glad that was not my calling. These guys were not standing around praying all day. They were working hard as they had to do a LOT of butchering. Like. All. Day. Long! My husband used to work in the meat department at our local grocery store. It is a lot of bloody, messy work. Ugh… and don’t get me started on cleaning all the tools! But these priests understood the importance of their jobs, helping God’s people atone for their sins through the sacrifice of the animals they raised. And it wasn’t a one-time thing for each person; it was continual for all of each person’s life.  This reminds me of how thankful I am that we don’t have to do that anymore because of what Christ did for us (Hebrews 10). Besides eternal salvation, we also don’t have to spend a great deal of our time butchering animals and barbequing them! 

Numbers 9 discusses God’s decrees on celebrating the Passover and then their “moving” protocol. Growing up in the Air Force, I think I can understand never knowing how long you would be in any given spot.  Sometimes God would have the Israelites stay for a few days, sometimes for a few years. I don’t know if this is the reason, but I suspect God did not want them to become too comfortable where they were and wanted them to remember their current position was not their home.  We too would be wise to remember that where we are now is not our permanent home and we should not become too comfortable within the world. 

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. Have you ever moved at God’s command – or stayed put at His command?
  2. How do we tell today when and where He wants us to go – or stay?
  3. What are you learning about God in Numbers so far?
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May the Lord’s Face Shine On You

Number 4-6 

While Numbers 4 still involves some counting, it becomes much more interesting with a little Holy interior decorating! I fell down a little Google rabbit hole reading about what kind of leather was used in the temple.  NIV says sea cow, NASB says porpoise, theologians have theorised other interpretations. But I think the point is, it was valuable and special. All of the designs and decor of the tabernacle were both God instructed and enabled. I have always wondered how the people building the tabernacle could build what they were told to build. I then heard from someone, that they were able to do this work because they were given the gift of the Holy Spirit (Exodus 31:1-6 and 35:30-36:2). I think this makes a lot of sense! 

Also, and part of the importance of this passage is God was very clear who could touch what and when. Death comes to those who did not heed God’s commands, no matter how small they may seem. God will not be mocked nor disobeyed. 

Numbers 5 and 6 are kind of a wild mix of blessings and curses. First Numbers 5 speaks of the sanctification of anyone who was ceremonially unclean or guilty of sin. Moses then writes of a “grain offering for jealousy.” I looked at several commentaries and still cannot quite understand why it was included in scripture and what it all means.  One commentary reminds readers that this was a time of many rituals for many issues and this would not have been that odd to the people of that time. My own thought is that this was another situation where it was very important to obey God. I believe that God protected women who were innocent of adultery and they were not affected by this curse. 

In Numbers 6, we learn what one needs to do to become a Nazirite. Reading this reminds me of the sacrifices my Catholic nun friends had to make to become a nun.  It is very honorable to dedicate your life to God. However, it is not necessary to become a Nazirite or a nun/monk to dedicate your life to God.  Because of Christ, through baptism, we can be sons and daughters of God. And we can receive the Aaronic Blessing: 

The Lord bless you and keep you,

The Lord make his face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;

The Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.  (Numbers 6:24-26)

God bless you this week as you obey His word! 

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. What do you find in Numbers that reminds you of the importance of obeying God?
  2. What do we learn about God so far in the book of Numbers?
  3. Have you ever experienced the Lord making His face shine upon you? When? How does it feel? What do you think the Lord likes to make His face shine upon?
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Tabernacle Parking

Numbers 1-3

Once upon a time, I had to take a statistics class.  It was awful! I am not a numbers person at all and the professor was dry and would trail off while he was talking. Every class was an exercise in trying to stay awake for an hour and 15 minutes! But I do think he could have spiced things up a bit if he had thrown in some fun or shocking stories in between the equations.  For example: “So in this case p is equal to the sum of the number of participants in the study, which was looking at the correlation between owning a machete and a ninja outfit and ending up in the emergency room.” 

So when I was reading the first two chapters, I was getting flashbacks of that statistics class. They are purely numbers and logistics. The 12 tribes of Israel had left Egypt about a year before and God was now “parking” the tabernacle in the desert, with the 12 tribes in specific stations around the tabernacle.

God had Moses and Aaron count all the men in the tribe. Boring! I like how Chuck Swindoll put it in his commentary, “Numbers takes the reader on a long and winding path through a desert of excruciating detail.”  But then I hit chapter 3 and Aaron’s two eldest sons, Nadab and Abihu fall dead because they offer God an “unauthorized fire” and they had no children, WHAT??? That got my attention! Why was the fire “unauthorized”? Why did God strike them dead? So many questions??? But the biggest question the story starts to answer is WHY Numbers is included in our Bible. 

Besides its historical significance, Numbers speaks of the importance of obedience to God and God’s intolerance of sin. Leviticus 10:1-2 gives a little more detail on what happened to Nadab and Abihu, but it was basically just straight up disobedience to God. We may think this was a pretty minor issue, but it points to the fact that God does not tolerate sin of any kind. No matter how “good” you are, you will not live a life of perfection and will at some point deserve the punishment Nadab and Abihu received. Goodness, do we need a savior! THANK GOD for JESUS! 

So, yes, much of this book is boring, especially today’s reading, but unlike that statistics class, you will find application for your own life in this book.

-Maria Knowlton

Reflection Questions

  1. God has a plan for His people, even for where each tribe was to park around the tabernacle. How might He share His plans today?
  2. Why is God looking for, and expecting, obedience from His people during the time of Numbers? What does God’s desire and expectations look like today? Does the sacrifice of Jesus mean obedience isn’t required any more?
  3. What application can you find for your life from Numbers 1-3?
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Your Role in Revelation

Old Testament: Ezekiel 4-6
Poetry: Psalm 92
New Testament: Revelation 7


My apologies, I messed up the schedule and talked about Revelation 5 rather than 6 yesterday, so today we’ll get a lot of Revelation! I am writing this from somewhere in the middle of Indiana with about 27 of my brothers and sisters in Christ. Please pray for all those going to ReFuel South. Please pray for our safety and great blessings to those hosting it! I also pray the worship and preaching will glorify God and encourage the walk of faith for all attendees!


Most little girls love horses. Horses are beautiful, graceful, and strong. I, however, have a healthy fear/respect for horses. A long time ago, I volunteered with a program that matched horses with kids with disabilities. I loved the kids. However, I spent most of the time grooming a horse that knew I feared him and took every advantage of that… including releasing some methane every single time I brushed his backside. Ugh. So you can imagine I find the visions of the four horses of the apocalypse especially disturbing. In fact, most of yesterday and today’s reading was pretty gruesome. Ezekiel starts out eating scrolls that taste like honey but ends the reading with foretelling about the great destruction of Israel. One third is killed by fire, one third is killed by the sword, and one third will be saved but scattered across the nations. Keep this in
mind for tomorrow’s reading in Revelation. Revelation starts with the horses representing the conqueror, death, famine, and war along with the seals representing the martyrs and terror.


Thankfully, we move on to the 144.000 chosen from the tribes of Israel. But then, THEN, WE are mentioned!!! Starting in verse 9, WE are “ the every nation, tribe and tongue,” wearing white robes shouting, “Salvation to our God who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb!”


When the reading of the Old Testament and Revelation gets a little frightening, It is these promises of God to which I cling… Much like on the few occasions I ride a retired horse on a worn park trail!

-Maria Knowlton

And the editor apologizes for yesterday missing that we are starting Ezekiel with 3 chapters for the first few days in order to get the rest of the Old Testament to squeeze into the rest of the year. So you might need to play a little catch-up to get in Ezekiel 3. Sorry. But, while we are talking schedules, I am starting to put together the Bible reading plan for next year. If you have a preference on what that might look like (chronological, 1-3 readings a day, etc…), leave a comment or let Marcia know. Thank you for Seeking, Growing & Loving with us!

Reflection Questions

  1. Are you prepared for your role in Revelation? Do you know and confess the ones who hold Salvation?
  2. How can you practice for your part today?
  3. Why do you think God gave both Ezekiel and Revelation to the audiences they were originally written for, as well as saved for you and I?
  4. What do we learn about God in our reading today?
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