
OLD TESTAMENT: Ezra 1-3
*POETRY: Psalm 139
NEW TESTAMENT: John 12:20-36
Psalm 139 is beautiful.
God searches us and knows us.
He is all around us, ready to be there for us no matter where we go.
He thinks precious thoughts of us.
I desire that God will slay the wicked because I hate them so deeply.
God will lead me in the everlasting way.
Yes, truly beautiful.
Wait a second, what was that part about slaying the wicked.
For 18 verses we are given a beautiful declaration about the wonder and majesty of God and his deep and unending love for his people. Then verse 19 comes along and the psalmist is declaring his homicidal thoughts for everyone God hates. Wait, that GOD hates? God hates people?! What’s going on?
Let’s remind ourselves what the Psalms *are*. The Psalms are collectively, the songbook of the people of Israel, composed by different men, women, and bands across hundreds of years and in different places. Each psalm is, individually, a poem, lyrics to the song composed.
The Bible is inspired, authoritative, and true, but the personality and desires of the author comes through. God’s inspiration is not so thorough as to remove the human element from the text. Here, we can see the way in which David, who either wrote the psalm or who inspired the psalm (see note below) considered his faithfulness to God displayed. While God cared for David, David loved God by, in this case, defending his honor. There are men, men who desire bloodshed, who speak wickedly against God, who are enemies of The Most High. David desires that they do not get away with their sinful lifestyle, but that they instead have their evil come back on their own head.
Here’s where this can make sense to us: God is not shocked by your anger, your revenge plots, your bitterness. He wants to hear it. He wants you to “put pen to paper” or, maybe more accurately, put word to thought, and express your feelings. Where they are justified (sin is evil and WILL be overthrown) he will allow those feelings to continue and where they are wrong (God desires all to be come to a knowledge of the truth, not hating his enemies) God will work to correct them. He knows what is on your heart, but he wants you to acknowledge that reality yourself.
When you acknowledge the dark part within yourself, not denying it but confessing it and repenting of it, then you will be able to say “see if there is any hurtful way in me.”
And God will lead you in the everlasting way.
(Note: “Of David” could mean either “by David” or “in the style of David.”)
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-Jake Ballard
Questions
- Any where you go, God is already there. In theological terms, we call this God’s omnipresence. He is everywhere all at once. Is this comforting or terrifying? It is freedom or oppression? Why do you think that?
- Each person is fearfully and wonderfully made by God, knit together in the womb of their mother. People are people in the womb, known and loved by God. How should that impact how we think about little humans in wombs in our world?
- Are there any dark parts that you need to declare to God? Anger, bitterness and resentment you need to release, because he cares, as well as already knows your heart?
- “Search me and try me” are bold statements. If you have had a blessed day, ask God this difficult question, expecting God to give you an answer. If you have not had a good day, pray that God would show up clearly and lead you clearly tomorrow.




