
1 Samuel 27-28
Psalm 51
Romans 9
-Devotion by Sarah Johnson (MN)
Some people are a big fan of mysteries. I am not one of those people. When getting a new fiction book, I start by reading the last paragraph of the last chapter just so I know what to expect (trust me, I know it’s weird…). So you can imagine there are many things within our faith that are a challenge for me to grapple with as “mysteries of God”. Romans 9 is a great example of one of those things that requires me to acknowledge that I simply do not, cannot, and most definitely should not know everything there is to know about our Creator.
Paul starts this chapter off by attempting to describe how deeply he loves his Jewish community and desperately wants them to understand Jesus, so much so that he wishes he himself could simply be cursed and cut off for the sake of his people (v. 3). This is similar to how Moses offers himself to be blotted out of God’s book when he watches his people worshipping a golden calf (Exodus 30:32). In both of these instances, these men have a deep love for their people, and yet their love alone is just not enough to change their salvation. There was only one who was capable of holding that type of power in substitution, the man Jesus Christ. Paul references many Old Testament passages that point to a coming Messiah and how salvation may be brought to the Gentiles in this letter – he knows exactly what doubts his fellow Jewish believers may have, and tries to proactively present his case, as he often does in his writing.
And then we start getting into that mystery part of things… God is sovereign, the Ruler over all, the one who decides who he extends mercy to, and who he hardens (v. 18). Well that’s just not fair, is it?? I want to justify these verses in my own mind to make them “nicer” – somehow I want to twist these words, rationalize them, make them more presentable, and far less mysterious. But in doing so, I remove God from His rightful place of sovereignty in my mind. I am absolutely the type of person Paul references in verse 19 – “one of you will say to me: Then why does God still blame us? For who is able to resist His will?”. I am nothing more than a mere clump of clay, pretending as if I have any right to tell the potter what to make of me.
In his study of Romans book, author Jared C. Willson writes this on my very thoughts above: “If we dictate to God what he must be like, then we are not in fact worshiping God – we are worshiping an idol, for it is a god of our own making.” When I try to over-simplify or “clean up” these mysterious moments of God, I am no longer genuinely focused on Him. I am focusing on the more presentable parts of the gospel, when in reality, we must wrestle with ALL parts, praying for wisdom and understanding as we navigate the mystery.
I will not pretend to know why God does what He does. I will not pretend to understand why some people just won’t grasp the gospel. I will not pretend I can figure out the mysteries of God. So while it may be confusing, and at times slightly disheartening or even frustrating, I will also choose to find comfort in the fact that it does not depend on human desire, or effort, but on God’s mercy alone (v.16). What a beautiful mystery!
Reflection Questions
- Have there been moments in your faith walk when you attempted to dictate to God what He must be like? Looking back now, are you able to see what you missed in doing so?
- The last few verses of this chapter describe Jesus as a stumbling stone. How might believers stumble over the truth of Jesus?
Prayer
What an honor it is to speak to You Lord God, the Maker of Heaven and Earth and me. Help me see You for who You are – a God too big and great and right for my comprehension. And help me see me for who You made me to be, and do what You want me to do.









